The Fountain of Hope

One sultry summer's evening,

That time the sun was blushing red, and was setting,

I sat by myself, thinking hard on the park bench,

I gave up, I let all my hopes drench.

I looked up and saw, that on another bench nearby,

There sat a couple, it seemed, that to them, love had easily come by,

She said I love you, and hugged him,

His eyes, of illimited joy, filled up to their brim.

I sat there watching them, as they walked,

Along the border of the fountain in the park,

He held her hand tight, and both of them closed their eyes,

I could see they were desperate, nervousness filled their sighs.

They kissed a coin, and tossed it,

Into the fountain; and to its bottom, it softly hit,

They lingered around, and looked at the water, fall,

They knew, this wish of theirs was their only hope, this was all.

Then, the couple left and I sat wondering,

What was it they wanted so much? Was it a person? Was it a thing?

I hastily made my way up to the fountain there,

I saw numerous coins in it, I laughed at how absurd people were.

After a few weeks, however, I saw,

The same couple, in the park, again, happy to the edge of awe

The woman, now blissfully sported a little bump on her belly,

She clutched on to her husband's hands and walked with grace, carefully.

The husband held onto her as if she were a precious gem,

I could not suppress a smile, as I sat and looked at them,

I shook my head in awe, and saw,

the love in their eyes, purely raw.

After some more months flew by, like a lark,

The couple again, presented themselves near the park,

This time they were adorned, by a little bundle in between

The woman's arms; she looked very excited, delighted as ever and keen. 

I realised how their wish had come true,

The couple, seemed more than glad, to go to three, from two,

I saw excited and happy faces as I looked around, and noted,

The faces of others in the park, of excitement and happiness bloated.

With utter bewilderment, I remembered the number of coins in the fountain that had been tossed,

I suddenly clung on to the my dreams that I had long lost,

I stood abruptly and ran up to the fountain,

I kissed a coin, prayed with all the might in my veins, and threw it in.

I stood there looking at all the coins underneath,

There lay my dreams, along with the other's, beneath,

The fountain of hope, they called it,

To me, a realm of new pathways it lit.

The idea of it now, to me was not absurd at all,

Instead, it meant the dawn of hopes and dreams that now stood tall.

As I thought how amazing it was that someone's belief,

Had strengthened my own hopes; I breathed a sigh of relief.

The fountain of hope, they called it,

And as I anxiously waited for my dreams to unfold, I laughed at my narrowed wit.

Alone

I felt very weak, very vulnerable

I felt stuck, frustrated, and times were despicable,

I felt persuasive dismay, followed closely by hopelessness,

I felt fragile, yet stuffed with emptiness.

I was a victim of threat and fright

I felt lame, as I was forced into an undesirable plight

I was denied of what was most rightfully mine,

All I could do was complain and whine.

My realm of possibilities now lay dreadfully drenched and sloppy,

My dreams, ruthlessly crushed and smothered under a wicked canopy,

I was deprived of what I genuinely deserved

I was struck hard every time, no matter how smartly I swerved.

I rubbished the entire notion of luck and faith,

And gave myself into the engulfing wrath,

The once ambitious focused, and hopeful 'me',

Now gave up, and let the intricacies be.

Times were troubled and hopes alone wouldn't suffice,

I saw myself crying at the travesty of justice

I felt like I would never taste happiness and love,

I foresaw the prevalence of periods of ordeal somehow

I found myself in such trashy state of affairs,

I always faced dead ends, locked doors, and unanswered prayers,

My once opulent heart was now left derelict,

The rude wind harshly blew out the bright candles of hope that I lit.

I was a sufferer of satirical taunts,

The memory of remorse threateningly haunts,

I listened to their pitiless trenchant often,

All my strength was forced to soften.

There I lay desperate for warmth against the pressing cold,

Desperate for mirth, desperate for my old self, poised and bold,

For a kiss of hope I would never get, for a gasp of faith, and something new,

For a change of sorts, for some kind of disguised virtue.

But the time refused to alter and remained as itself, I was blown.

And for sometime in my life, till now, I felt all alone.

Relationships

  They come, and they go. Some stay, while some may. Some help you unexpectedly, others just expect favours from you. Some surprise you with their wit. Others with their stupidity! Some fly you to the joys of the heaven and some just drag you down to hell. They deplore of your feelings and jeer at you, jealously. While others lay their hands on you and pull you up from depths of despair. Some make jibes that are abhor-able. Some send out vibes that are adorable. Some jolt your jaws while they make you laugh, others just make you want to barf. Some simply dote on you, while others may despise you. Some kiss you sweetly while others will kiss and tell immediately! Some are plain, some are tacky. Some think straight, some whacky. Some are famous for they are love fanatics while others are infamous for their infidelity. 

  Of all these people and more, you will find only a hand few who always are by your side no matter what happens. You may find these people in the forms of a best friend, or parents or even your better halves who always know you better than you know yourselves. It is just amazing that you come across so many people in your life. So many acquaintances, each, from a different upbringing, from a different culture, and palpably, different thinking. It just matters that they all came into your life, at times unexpected, and made fun memories for you to keep, or memories for you to learn from. They all were, are and will be a part of your life for a reason, which you will know sooner or later. You just have to be patient, and wait. The wait may just pay off and you might end up re-discovering yourself. Or you might just end up with that one person with whom you may spend the rest of your life with!

  You never know. You never know what might happen, the next moment. Such is the uncertainty of life. It is just fair that you live each moment and enhance relationships around you. Relationships with others and most importantly! the relationship with you, which you will share till you breath your last.

Star Gazing

One chilly Winter's evening,
When twilight's end was nearing,
One by one, with no haste, the heavenly bodies blinked,
Down upon Earth, as darkness dawned and the stars winked.

Two young girls, wrapped up to their necks, in shawls,
Moved up to the terrace to hear the Heaven's calls,
They lay down on their backs and looked up,
At God's enchanting Creation, a most treasured setup.

They lay there and stared in awe,
As the clouds passing by, dressed and undressed the bright moon, they saw,
The star strewn night sky left them dazzled,
While the mystery of it's creation, left them baffled.

They were soon out of words to appreciate and admire,
Excitement crept up their minds like wild fire,
Stretched across the deep blue velvet sky,like scattered paint on canvas,
The beautiful scene had them entranced and ravenous.

The tranquility and serenity that the stars to them offered,
Left all the noise in their heads, muffled,
They were amazed at how simple things like wonderful scenery,
Could put them out of their deepest misery.

They gazed and gazed up above, despite the biting cold,
The shapes of Mermaids, Poodles, and snakes, they saw on a cloud,
Their enjoyment was beyond explanation,
For so stunning and striking was their vision.

Two young girls on a chilly Winter's evening,
Climbed up the terrace in pursuit of star gazing.

I lied

As i trawled through the pages of my life i found,
Truth has many facets to it,of which lies are profound.
I found, that behind the amiable facade, there was the unpleasant me,
Behind the face that smiled, there was a face, no one else could see.
I lied.

Bearing in mind the things that would affect the long run,
Sometimes to make someone laugh, sometimes, just for fun,
Most of the times, to save my neck and to survive,
Sometimes out of force, sometimes to thrive.
I lied.

To numb the pain for a while,
Or just to see a loved one smile,
Sometimes out of insecurity and confusion,
I altered the truth a little, also the vision.
I lied.

Yes, I modified the truth immensely, more or less,
Or I tried and failed miserably to justify, nevertheless,
To please people and myself,
By a mere choice of mine, or destiny's.
I lied.

To stop myself from faltering,
I shamelessly kept on altering,
To hide my flaws, i feigned emotions,
We are all fallible, I falsified true notions.
I lied.

In a due course of time though, to me it finally transpired,
Everyone lies and that it will prevail along with the truth, until all time expired,
They say thoughts leave deeper scarring than physical wounds, that is justifiable,
Lying, unless it fatally damages someone, is acceptable.

Sometimes, life is too good to be true,
Yes, I lied. We all do.

Hope

   There are times in life when you confidently think that you have had it all figured out. That feeling somewhere deep down in your heart, a feeling that everything will turn out as good as it all looks in your head. The craving, that your constant prayers will be finally answered to, that your dreams will soon materialise without any hassles. That people of your own, will understand you better, accept you for who you really are. Respect what you really want.

 To get one step closer to achieving success. To successfully swim past trouble. To keep a promise. To put things in order. To sleep peacefully past twilight. we all have these desires.

   But you see, call it life, destiny, fate or whatever you want to call it; it is always out of your league. It always dwells away, far away from deduction, science and mere guesses. It has got other plans for you. Even if it has to agree to your deepest desires, it has it's own way of obliging. All it takes is one swig of reality to bring you back out of your fantasy world, and make you face the music- the truth. The world where everything was once sugar coated, finally dissolves.

But it is at these moments of life that you are tested. This is when you have to gather up your guts,your bravery and loads of patience. They say things we lose have a way of coming back to us in the end. Except, its not always in the way we expect them to. Until then, you'll just have to wait in constant hope. 

   Hope that everything is going to be just fine in the end. Hoping that your lost treasure will be found in some dark corner that you haven't searched yet. Hoping that someone will come along as your saving grace and put things in order for you. Hope that your guardian angel will always smile upon you, and protect you under her wings. Always have hope. Hope for the best out of life-s every moment. After all, hope is a very good thing.